February 15, 2006
Moody Blues
Today I am in what I can only describe as "a mood." I'm not sad, angry, or otherwise upset about anything; "there's nothin' there man, it's just....void."
I don't attribute this mood to my problems with certain family members. I'm not going to give that person any credit for influencing my mood.
Every year about this time I get a little moody. Moodier by the year, actually. My birthday is approaching and somehow it just doesn't mean anything. I don't have, have never really had, birthday parties; I think the last time I had any kind of "celebration" was back on my 25th birthday; a group of drinking buddies and I spent the night in a bar shooting darts and getting tanked.
Now, with two little kids, doing something means more work than usual. Husband and I could go out and take the kids with us, which is a pain, or we could get a sitter, also a pain.
In a way it doesn't really matter to me if we do anything or not. Part of me just wants to stay home, but I would like some kind of acknowledgement from my family. I have to bake my own cake!
So what's my point? Birthday's aren't what they used to be, and I'm getting older. What do I want my birthday to be? I don't know... A national holiday?!
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Yeah, b-days sure lose the luster when you're an adult. Birthdays as a child mean ALL those presents, balloons, and all that wonderful cake! New toys! New clothes! Lots of people! Everyone saying what a big girl you are now! Even as a teenager they're still cool - all the gifts of money! Old enough to date! Old enough to drive! And the big one, old enough to drink. After that the only one worth reaching is old enough to rent a car (on the outside chance you have a need to rent a car).
I always try to keep my dad's words in mind regarding birthdays: "It's better than the alternative." That sure isn't much to cheer you up but that's what I keep in mind now!
When you're married to someone who's not exactly romantic you know they won't be surprising you with anything (like taking you out to dinner AND arranging for someone to stay with the kids). And if you are a SAHM parent, no co-workers to do anything. Well, we're thinking of you over here at Herding Cats.
Posted by: junebee at February 15, 2006 08:31 PMI get the same mood around my birthday too, for the same reason.
It dawned on me that I have never in my LIFE been the recipient of a suprise party.
We should all have a pity party. Ill bring the booze.
Posted by: Brian B at February 16, 2006 10:45 AMWhat's the halfway point between OR and OH?
Posted by: GroovyVic at February 16, 2006 10:49 AMRoughly Nebraska.
Oh, God, I don't think I can afford enough booze to deal with Nebraska....
Posted by: Brian B at February 16, 2006 12:23 PM